again...


I haven't been on here in ages.
I put up a few new things.
not the best.
but I'll be adding more soon...

right now though, it's 5:17 AM, and though it probably won't work, I think it's in my best interest to try to sleep.


sweet dreams.




EDIT://

it's the next.. day. I guess. morning. something.
but it's 4:45 AM now.
sometimes I cannot believe how cruel I am to myself.
most of the time I don't even realize I'm doing it.
take right now for example.
I'm just too curious.
curiosity killed the cat.
killed the cat
killed the catttttt.
fucking who knows. I never do.


please visit my xanga site, because I won't be updating this one regularly probably.
www.xanga.com/shes_g0ne77

if anyone cares, ha.
another bad habit I have is talking to computer screens, and not to people. Nobody reads this shit except for me. *shrugs*
iiiii don't wanna die, I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all.
*sigh*
I'm sorry. I really am.
for everything.
I'm a black hole, and I don't want to be.
I wish I was a good person. I am a good person. but I wish this shit wasn't fucking blocking it all out.
I wish too many things.
greedy, nasty little girl.


smashed up my sanity
smashed up my integrity
smashed up what I believe in
smashed up what's left of me
smashed up my everything
smashed up all that was true
gonna smash myself to pieces
I don't know what else to do.




what the fuck ever.
I'm going to sleep now.
seeya when the day's already been wasted.
fuck insomnia
fuck being so fucking delusional all the fucking time.
fuck this. whatever. i'm really going now.

adeus.